The point is:

I have failed at my own idea.

I apologize.

I will be better.  I can do better.  Yes I can.  

I've been thinking about girls growing up.  Watching them in this supposed haven, sheltered from any sense of change, cloistered into consistency.  I've been watching their mannerisms, developed from a steady influx of shoulds and coulds and never-will-bes, thinking about how I should have been a dancer (but never would), should have been a poet (but couldn't, just couldn't), should have been a hot body.  What do they think they will be?

The point is:  how far we've come.  

I hope I can say the same in another 10 years, in another 15, more.  I hope I can continue to say the distance we've traveled is vast; the yearnings we seek have stretched; the things we should have been are....

well, what?  Are they accomplished?  Defeated?  Thought better of?  Are they inane to begin with, just crumbs from a phantom want?  

I guess I hope I know.  I know enough to know.  

Today:  I should be a force, a change, a magnet.  I should be without the hesitancy that stills plagues my biggest ambitions.  I should never say, "if only I could..."

and you?

...Josh is in the kitchen listening to rap that sneaks up on you like a dick in ya face.  And everybody's living with boys these days, it seems.  Even me.  I never thought much about what that should be.  

Combos - And if you get a bag without cheese in them...the bag is haunted...

So the new adventure of our lives continues. Say it again...the new adventure of our lives continues. Yep. I know, that makes no sense, but you know what I mean.

Dear You Guys,

Thanks. Thanks for being incredible. Thanks for believing in me. Thanks for thinking I'm worthwhile. I really just love you.

To both of you; I wish you the most incredible bliss on your new adventures. I know that there are a lot of unknowns, and a lot of reasons to be worried. However, one thing I know about both of you is that you've never gone wrong, and you have always been extremely fabulous decision makers. I've loved everything you've done. Its safe to say that I am one of the biggest fans of your lives and I hope to remain that way.

When in doubt, know that you really can do no wrong in my eyes.

I'll love you always and forever and I can't wait to see you again.

The Mayor

We always talk about this....

Ok, so this is the BLOG.

Make sure to always be honest and lovely. You can be mean if you want, but its better to just speak from the heart.

Know that I love you and think of you often. Well....evvieday really.

Love you.

The Mayor.